I would have never thought...

today was by far one the most enlightening day's I've had for a while.
I learned a lot about myself and was amazed at when I push myself I can pretty much accomplish whatever I set out to do. I think this is coming at a great time, right before graduation... Learning I can push myself to do anything I want. No matter what. So, we are in the great smokies... it's breath taking... in more ways then one. The sights are beautiful. I can sit on our porch in the rockers for house just taking in all of nature. The air is thin, but the breathless hikes to do things are well worth it! :)
Today we went to a jump off... I stood there and waited for about twenty minutes trying to brace myself for "the jump" which turned out to be, 25 feet before I hit the water... As I stood there, amazed at all the fearless little kids coming and going like, it was nothing... This one little girl stood there and was like, " you need to go!" she had the most southern accent I've ever heard! I looked at her, almost feeling the need to pass out and said, well I promise I will go after you. She looked at me and said I've been 2 times since you've been standing here. I promised her again and she jumped... on her way down she shouted you promised!!!! I allowed her mother to go, and then, I did it. I LOVED it!! There is nothing like free falling for 25 ft and then hitting water... ICE COLD WATER. But I did it once and then we headed off to Chimneys, where my real adventure began.
Marg, Bay, Dee, Kles, and I wanted to embark on an adventure... We step in the water, which was so cold but amazing, we wanted to cross the "creek" so we set out to do just that. We climbed rocks, walked in the water, watching our every step... You see, normally, I would not do something like this. I would have never climbed these rocks because of wondering what people might think, or worried about me being so out of shape and not making it... However, I put those fears aside, and I am ever so glad I did! It was so worth it. I realized as I was climbing, that I can do whatever I set out, no matter what, I purposefully set "goals" to do while climbing and walking. I met everyone of those, and I was so excited that I did!!!! I did fall once, oh man it was so funny. My family only saw me go down and thought I might have hit my head or smashed my face... I came up laughing so hard I almost fell again... The people around me stood there in, well, pure confusion... I quickly got back on to accomplishing my goals... For me, this fall was saying as many times as I fall flat on my face, it doesn't have to stop me from completing my goals... It only made me want to strive to accomplish this goals even more.
So today, I learned a lot about me, no longer am I going to let me hold me back for some "reason." I was so liberated, and excited. I got home and realized I have a goose egg on my knee and it is rather swollen, and my right leg has marks all the way down them. But, when I look at those marks, I realize these markings helped me to get to where I wanted to go, and my goals were well accomplished, and I couldn't be more proud of me today... For the first time, I put my fears aside, and accomplished something I would have never thought I would have in a million years.

The rememberance of Love...

This is by far one of the most amazing things you will ever see...
There is no limits when it comes to love...
Man and "Beast" reunited...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U

Group Project/ Venting session...

As students of Springfield College, we are required before graduation to complete a year long class / process called Group Project. It pretty much means giving back into the community...
This class has by far had its ups and downs. Mainly it is overly time consuming, and pulls many emotions out...

I've learned a lot about myself throughout my time in group... However, today, I have reached my all time high of frustration... I told my group leader back in May, that, August 3rd I would not be able to meet over lunch break. However, today they all decided that we MUST meet... and we MUST be there since we aren't going to be able to get together before our final group project presentation day.... Which, now puts me in a tight spot... I have to now change my plans and its causing me a lot of frustration... however, I will live with it I guess... It just changes everything I had planned for that day with someone... But she and I will manage and I guess I will live. I have only 28 more days to put up with this mess! I cant wait to be finished with Group!!

I am tired of home work... However, I am sure I will be longing to get back into the flow of it... For now, I am soaking up the time I have left with Ms. Hudson... She is far to good to me... I don't know where I would be if it weren't for her throughout my time here at Springfield!

For now, I am signing off to go do MORE group things.. I promise you it never ending....

Sorry for the vent session.... :)

Graduation

This time next month I will be getting out of my Criminal Justice class, and heading to graduation! I cant wait!! I get out at 4 and graduation is at 5! So, I have little to no time inbetween. I cant tell you how excited I am!! It is almost here, and yet it still seems so far away!!!!

Yesterday my cap and gown arrived as well as my graduation announcements. :) Which excites me even more! :) It's so close!

Well I have to go make a few changes to my Senior Paper... :) It's due tomorrow. woohoo! :)
much love!
jana

33 days

Well, Graduation is right here. I know this next month is going to be packed full of events, which will help it these next 33 days pass. It seems like I was just at over a hundred days. Now, I am right at a month. My how time is going quickly...
My senior paper is finished, and I am having proofed over again and again. :) It must be turned in by Friday. YAY! Hopefully Once I get it back there wont be to many changes that need to be made. ahhh I cant wait! Really!!!

So, a lot has been going on, and I am pretty excited about the changes.... I am going to be going over to Spain for some time to live and work there. I am excited about this adventure in my life.

Landen has arrived, well a month ago! He's perfect! Joshua adores him! He sleeps great! He was born weighing 7 lbs and 6 oz. He was 20 in long. He is amazing!

I love those two boys more than I ever thought you could love a human! I cant even tell you how they make my heart smile!!!!Josh has turned into this funny little kid. Hes going to be the class clown and super smart...
Today as his daddy was getting ready for work he said to Joe, "Bye-Bye Daddy." Joe didnt reply because he didnt hear Joshua, and so Joshie said it again, to no response.... Josh gets up walks over to Joe, and says "Say bye bye Daddy." Needless to say they had a nice laugh about him telling his daddy to say bye bye...

These little boys bring the greatest joy to my life. I cant wait to see them!! I love sitting on the floor with Joshie playing, and I love sitting and holding little Landen and watching his smile... The smiles these two boys give could melt a heart of stone... I could go on and on about these two.

I was finally able to tell Ms. Hudson about Spain. She was beyond thrilled. I cant tell you how many times she told me she was so excited... as long as I stayed in contact. :) I promised I would.
We had many laughs about my professor for the day... He is by far the weirdest teacher I've had yet!!!!! Oh my....

With graduation right here I am feeling more and more nervous with each passing day... I ordered the invites, my cap and gown, and the sashes we must wear... I am working on the graduation party list... The realization hits me everyday! Something is said, or done in preparation for graduation... So for now, I am logging off to go get my group project stuff done for the meeting on Saturday.

Much love...
jana