Hello My few faithful readers,
I am sorry, my faithfulness to my blogging hasn't been to great! I've been busy working, but, I am vowing now, to become better! I've actually, been doing a lot of "soul searching" or just looking into myself, and looking for ways to become a better me, improve myself, and so on. I've started taking these steps, and I call it, my fearless living step. I must do one a day, and then I move it up to two and so on, until I am doing these without even realizing or forcing myself daily. Some days it is as small as painting my nails some funky color that I normally wouldnt be found dead in. However, I've not done that one. But, they are as simple as that, or they are harder and cause a little more emotion to rise. Some are allowing others to have the freedom to take a photo and post it as they please, sometimes, that a bit hard, because I mean we all have those embarrassing photos we don't ever want a soul to see. But, anyways. I am working on living a free, and fearless life. I've always started applying some very strict, hard core rules to my life. I am just working on bettering myself all around! Maintaining a positive attitude no matter how hard it might be. Okay enough on all that. :) Yesterday, I got to go and see my best friend! We've been best buddies since we were like 9 or something. We've been through a lot together, and yet, she is still one my bestest buds! I know no matter what I can call her and just freak out. She gets me like no other. We just have that understanding. Anyways, she is a mommy now, and a wife, and its so much fun to watch her in these roles, and just to see how we've grown into such different people, yet, we're still best friends we can rely on, and all. Jodi currently lives in MO, and I am here in Florida... Which, is hard at times, but, we never miss a moment to get together when she is here! Yesterday, was filled with much laughter, and just playing with the kids, and a random comment about something that happen when we were growing up. We have the best stories, and when we are telling them, we are laughing so hard we're the only ones who know what we are really saying. I am not sure what is funnier, us laughing so hard, or what happened... I didn't realize until I was on my way home how much I miss my friends, and how I could just up and move to be closer to them! I wanted to cry on my way because I miss that type of friendship! I am so thankful for my friends here, but, there is nothing like the ones you've grown up with, and have all these memories. Who knows you better than anyone else! There's nothing like it! I did okay, until I was in the car alone, then I was fighting the almost uncontrollable sob that laid so deep with in me. I told myself to just hold out. It was just an awesome visit, and my laughs were so much! I haven't laughed that hard and that much in so long! It was so awesome, and I just sit here and feel like a little kid that's waited for Christmas all year. It came and went! My family is getting ready for our family trip! We are thrilled! I wont be joining them for more than 3 days. But, I plan to make those three days full of adventure, and discovery. I can't wait to be riding with the windows down, music blasting with those Smokies in view. It will be the greatest yet. Well, I think I've typed enough... Sorry for the long delay in blogs. I will get better! Wishing you enough!